Chapter Nine – The Mirror of Judgment


How it Ends

Chapter Nine
The Mirror of Judgment


I know of the many thousands of negative comments on the internet about me by people who imagine that they understand me and are sure they know all about me. Their puffed up and utterly distorted minds put their own perverted spin on everything I have carried out in obedience to the plain command of God to my soul and spirit. Even those who profess the name of Christ have had some bright ideas about me. But what they don't realize is how God has set up the judgment so people pass judgment on themselves, and expose their own selves, by the way they judge and condemn me, or anyone else they accuse and condemn. They hand over to God their opinion of me as the truth, while what they made up about me in their imagination is only true for themselves.

So then God holds up to them their own measuring rule that they created to judge me by. But, instead of measuring only their outward deeds by it, He's measuring their innermost thoughts and feelings, and the hidden impulses and desires deep in their souls that created their measuring rule by which they measured me and passed judgment on me. "And there is no created thing hidden from before him, but everything is naked and exposed before the eyes of Him to whom we give an account." Heb. 4:13, Aramaic Bible in Plain English. God says to them, "For as you have been judging, so you will be judged, and with your measure will it be measured to you." Matt. 7:2, BBE. He observes deep within them the precise science of what it was in their own selves which created me to be who I am to them in their imagination. They created this out of who they are of themselves, out of those specific traits in their own human nature which are on a subconscious level and hidden from their own awareness. God knows that for a person to have negative internal thoughts and reactions of condemnation for anyone, for whatever they did, it is an accurate indicator that that person is guilty of that thing themselves. For a person doesn't feel condemnation for someone else when they're not guilty of the same crime themselves, even if the crime is only in their thoughts or feelings.

I'm not saying that a person sinned against God because he felt something but didn't act upon it. I'm saying that that feeling he felt or that thought that he thought is an accurate indicator of the inherited and cultivated tendencies that are peculiar to him, and the cause for why he would view me in that particular way. It's an accurate indicator of where he comes from naturally, without the illumination of the Holy Spirit's view.


A person may say, "But I'm not guilty of being a controlling cult leader using my authority to coerce people like Wayne Bent does." Yet as God looks deep into his heart and soul and traces his condemnation of me to its root cause within him, He asks him respectfully and with deep interest, "Where did you get the idea that he is like that? What caused you to interpret what he did in that way?" As He is observing the inner workings of his own natural human traits, whatever they are, perhaps for example, like his own efforts to adjust, manipulate or control people and circumstances in his own life, or even the desires or impulses that he feels but he doesn't act upon, He says to them, "Your perception and judgment of Wayne Bent has nothing to do with who he actually is or what he actually did. It comes out of who you are inside. Your own self-imagined superiority over other people and circumstances, and the prerogatives you feel you have a right to exert over them, expose the place within you where your imagination of him came from. Your innermost soul reveals why you imagine him in that way, for you are the very things you imagine him being and doing, and which you condemn him for." But this works the other way also. Those who imagine me as pure, with pure motivations, are pure themselves. They are my brethren.

When a soul has allowed God to come very close to him and He has become very intimate with him, showing him in vivid and minute detail his own fallen human nature which has been hidden from him in his subconscious depths, there remains in that soul no condemnation in his heart for anyone. That soul knows what he is capable of doing, of himself, if he didn't have God's Spirit within him keeping him in His Life and nature. That soul has genuine understanding for others, and personal insight born out of deep self-knowledge which has come from God's illuminating Spirit.

But when a person can condemn someone else without any evidence, or with "evidence" that is contrived, or imagined, that person can know that he is actually talking about himself, and that he is guilty of the very crimes he is condemning in someone else. He can know that God arranged circumstances to bring that person into his life as a very helpful mirror to him with which he could now look deep into the hidden places of his own soul that he hadn't been able to see before, and see what was down in there. He was being given the opportunity to look at himself in the mirror (with the other person's face in it) and to objectively observe the judgments and opinions that were issuing forth out of his heart about "them," and in this way he could get a very accurate picture of his own soul. Because it is only out of his own character that those perceptions were issuing. They had nothing to do with the other person, who they actually are or what they actually did.

Those who post on the blogs around the world can know that, too. They can read their own blog postings about me or anyone else, and learn to know themselves. This is particularly true with my legal case where certain motivations were ascribed to me. How would it even enter my accusers' minds except that's where they were coming from? The accusations were coming from their own motivations. Their own soul was the source of the black tarballs they were throwing at me.

Someone else may say to me, "Well I'm not judging you, it's the Word of God that judges you." Well, the written Word of God records that God instructed Hosea the prophet to marry a whore because God was going to use Hosea's marriage to her as a parable for His people at that time. (Hosea 2:2) Yet this personal command of God to Hosea went directly against the specific written Word of God that He had given His people hundreds of years before, "They shall not take a wife that is a whore..." Lev. 21:7. So is the person who is saying that God's Word judges me, going to say that God's Word judged Hosea, also? "Hosea, I don't judge you, but the Word of God in Leviticus 21:7 judges you." Or, would they say to God, "You weren't supposed to do that, God. You were going against Your own Word that You gave before, and Your own Word judges You for this. Jesus named that behavior adultery." Or would they say to Hosea, "I can't believe your testimony, Hosea, that God told you to do this, because it goes directly against His written Word." Or did Hosea tell God, "No, I can't do that, God, because you told us in Leviticus 21:7 that we are not supposed to marry whores?" No, Hosea didn't hold God to His former written Word when God's personal, current, living Word was sounding in his soul. And, the only reason Hosea was able to recognize God's current Word to him was because God's Holy Spirit was very present within his soul, giving him eyes to see and ears to hear God giving preeminence to His current Word, over His previous written Word, and Hosea obeyed. It is written, "Hosea did it." Hosea 1:3, MSG.

The person who feels that God's Word is judging me for the events which God Himself instructed me, and then forced me to carry out, is being given the opportunity to look at himself in the "mirror" that God has put in front of his face (himself with my face on him). In it, he may objectively observe that he is the person that the Word of God is actually judging. And what is the Word judging him for? For not believing the testimony of the One that God sent to him in human flesh," as it is written:

This is the work of God that you believe on him whom He has sent. John 6:29. The Father himself, which has sent me, has borne witness of me. . . . And you have not His word abiding in you: for whom He has sent, him you believe not. John 5:37, 38.

Satan knows the specific deceptions he has brought to a soul that he has fallen for. He knows his faults and failings and can make suggestions to him in order to keep him firmly in his camp. He brings to him his own fallen thoughts and misapplications and puts them in first person, thinking his thoughts in him as though he were that person, "I'm not judging you but the Word of God judges you."

This person has revealed his ignorance of the Word of God and that it is not abiding in him. He has been deceived into thinking that his perception of me is God in him thinking His thoughts in him. But his perceptions of me are not coming from God Who sent me, but from his own human nature and its religious faith and perverted ideas actuated by the spirit of the god of this world. So God has set up the process of judgment during this time so that it exposes a person to himself if he has been sincerely deceived. Thus he has an opportunity to see and know himself as he actually is. "For when thy judgments [God's divine Opinions which He is issuing in The Little Book] are in the earth, the inhabitants of the world will learn righteousness." Isa. 26:9.


Only the Holy Spirit Who inspired the written Word can illuminate it and make it alive to a soul and apply its principles to the right time and right place and to the right person. The devil cites the written Word freely, but he never applies it aright. He quoted it at the end of Jesus' 40 days of temptation in the wilderness following his baptism, but it was for the purpose of derailing Jesus from his anointed mission. It is the same now. The devil quotes the written Word and misapplies it in order to derail a soul and distract his attention from God's light shining on him and its current, personal and actual application to himself. Concerning me, after one hears my testimony, Satan immediately repeats Scripture to derail the soul. He says, "It is written":

Then if any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ, or there; believe it not. For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect. Matt. 24:23, 24.

This Scripture is speaking of those who draw men to themselves. The pulpits of America are full of them. The world is full of them. But my message is not for people to follow my flesh, but my Spirit, the Spirit within me that I am following. The Life of God flashes upon the soul from the east even unto the west. It is not a man but a Life and it is God's life, eternal life. Yet it is through humans that God reveals His Life. That is the way He has chosen to do it. But Satan does not want the reader to catch God's Light. He would have the reader run away from the Life, for he names it a "false gospel."

Sometimes people reject me because instinctively they know that by believing my testimony, they would have to give up their own souls to God and they do not trust God with their souls. But every son of God, every soul who has been born of God's Seed, is anointed. "For as lightning cometh out of the east, and shineth even unto the west; so shall also the coming of the Son of man." Matt. 24:27. I desire that all men would have the Messiah lightning in them. THIS is my message and THIS is what my message has always been. It is a GIFT. But those who love self and the world "cannot go there."

But the anointing (Messiah, lightning) which you have received of him abideth in you, and you need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing (messiah) teaches you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it has taught you, you shall abide in him. 1 John 2:27.

There were thousands in Yeshua's day who were sincerely deceived by Satan and their religious leaders and who didn't believe Yeshua's testimony that God had sent him. But when God's increased light shone upon their hearts and minds after Pentecost, they humbled themselves and welcomed the light. Those who had been deceived but who decided that they wanted to keep their deception out of self-interest, because the increased light had also revealed the cross it would bring to them, hardened their hearts in pride against it because they loved their own lives. The deception gave them a license to keep their own heart.

Truly, the Holy Spirit is the only One Who can reveal to a soul that his mind (theological theory of the Word) and heart (true application of it in real life) aren't on the same page because he is following his own mind, instead of His mind. God is not interested in making His people merely a group of law-keepers. No, His interest is in them becoming Spirit-keepers and God followers.


In the events of the Consummation of the "marriage of the Lamb" that God brought about in the year 2000, He was desiring to give His people in this final generation a parable that would show them the key to translating to heaven without seeing physical death. God's people would have to be married to Him in a very real way, not just a theoretical or theological way. There would be certain crucial, pivotal steps and signs in this process of a human becoming bonded to God in this way, which would reveal that a person had entered into the kind of relationship with Him that was required for translation.

God designed that this crucial and pivotal process be revealed by two witnesses, because "at the mouth of two witnesses, or at the mouth of three witnesses, shall the matter be established." Deut. 19:15. So Father married two witnesses to the Anointed Spirit in me, the Lamb of God. And in the steps and signs He unfolded as He brought about His Son's literal, physical "marriage of the Lamb," and provided two witnesses to testify of its process and fulfillment, He revealed the steps and signs that occur in the very real spiritual process that Father takes every desirous soul through when He marries that soul to Himself in order to take him from this earth by translation.

I have given clear testimony that what I carried out at Strong City was by God's express command. If it were not true that God dictated my events, I would say so. God was the One who Himself arranged "the marriage of the Lamb" that He had foretold. Everyone should follow God's expressed command. When God draws the soul and bonds the soul to Himself, the soul's "old marriage" with its flesh is dissolved. "If anyone comes to me without hating his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple." Luke 14:26, 27, NAB.

A soul who is living by the divine faith that God has given, understands and believes my testimony because of his own personal experience of being forced and impelled by God. For when a soul is no longer living by its human faith and will, it is no longer in control of its own life, but can be forced by God to always do His will, instead. I know very well that after the Anointing appeared in me in 2000, my life was not about getting blessed by God; my life was about being forced by Him. He said, "You told Me before I brought you to the new land here, 'Father just put Your footsteps down and I will step in them.' You said you would just do whatever I did, so this is what we're doing." I know I was forced. And I know I was forced anyway, no matter my resistance, no matter my thoughts that there was no way I was going to do something, no matter my conscience or my salvation. He forced me to do His will, anyway, because this is what my heart actually wanted. Paul said he was "constrained" by Christ. He understood. That Greek word means, "to impel the soul," and impel means "urge, drive or force someone to do something; propel."

Someone who hasn't experienced God's faith and force in himself can sit back and think all kinds of thoughts about me, and God sees where he is coming from in his heart. He sees if his heart is pure, but he is sincerely blind to his own internal spring of human faith and experience within him. Or, He sees if he is having a hard time being honest with himself about me because He previously tested him to see if he would give up being in control of his own life so that he could be constrained by Him, but he couldn't "go there" with God. When souls are sincerely blind to themselves, God will put them in circumstances where their innermost thoughts and feelings and internal judgments will be forced into exposure. He opens the eyes of their understanding to themselves through hard experiences. God has ways that He does this with everyone. And this is what His judgment is like. He has set up the universe to reveal these intricate causes and effects. The technicality of it is really quite a potent thing to realize. No one escapes it.


There are souls who have a very precise and careful management of themselves. They carefully follow the rules most of the time. They have a strong force of the will. But the force of their will is carefully managed for their own best self-interests, even the self-interest of going to heaven when they die. These souls may have a powerful influence in the world or in their church. But this careful force of the will is not good enough for heaven. It is tainted with the self and the strong will of the self. But God draws even the weakest and the most unworthy and ungifted, as I am, and offers us an opportunity to simply follow His Voice. When we follow His righteousness and not fall into our own strong force of the will through rebellion, we are counted righteous, as righteous as He is. But of our own selves we know that we are "wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked." Rev. 3:17.

The wicked have a strong force of the will that they count as righteousness, but God counts as "filthy rags," because they use their force of the will to keep themselves alive and under their own control. They will not die to themselves, they cannot go there. They do not know that they are wretched and miserable and naked. The strong force of our will should only be used to follow God's instructions to our souls and never used to protect our self-interests, self-protection and self-love. Yes, we will suffer at the horns of the beast, and we will be persecuted, but that only serves to take from us the last of our earthliness and our love of the world.

Yeshua (Jesus) did not go to the cross so that we would not have to go there. He did not go to the cross so that we could go party with our worldly friends. No. He went to the cross so that we would have His Life and we would be enabled to go to our own cross and bear the trial and suffering that comes with it. I would have never been able to bear the cross of my imprisonment without the Life that Yeshua provided for me on His cross. Yeshua gave me the strength to face the force of the beast and patiently bear that force to the end.

Humans have no idea how interestedly and intricately their innermost thoughts and feelings are being studied and judged by heaven, but God is recording everything within them. It is all on God's recording, His divine memory card. And not only are their thoughts and feelings recorded, but their true heart. And our human nature doesn't have any idea what its true heart is. But God has it on record and it is indelibly etched in time. If people really knew that what they think while they're standing in line at the local store is being recorded by God, they would realize how interestedly heaven is observing them.

True intensely humble repentance is the only nullifier of all the charges against us. Deep repentance, acknowledging one's crimes that God has shown the soul and agreeing with Him, takes away all of the condemnation when the process is completed. God erases it from His record book. Humble repentance eliminates our condemnation, because no one would be saved otherwise. This humble repentance comes only from God, and it comes as a gift after He has broken open the soul to need it and receive it. And God truly knows when that "humble repentance" is only an act, contrived for the purpose of the strong will and force of one's self- interests. Some poor souls walk around all "humble" while they are actually full of themselves. They notice their humility and that notice turns it into gross and self-interested pride.


Some souls, such as the district attorney in my legal case, accused me of using my "authority" to coerce people, imagining that my "cult" followed me because I forced them to do what I wanted. But the truth is, I have never used force or coercion or manipulation against anyone at any time in our land. It is against my nature. I have always said, "Follow your heart." I have always supported any soul to do what they desired. And, I have always helped souls to be honest with themselves about what it was they really wanted, even if it was to leave God. Whatever their options were that they were considering, I would show them what the effects would be from what they were deciding between so they could intelligently choose for themselves what they really wanted. And then I would support them in their decision.

There have been some souls who heard the truth from me and then forced themselves against their own will to try and follow what I said. This caused them to believe that I was forcing them. I have no such unction in me. This force over others is a power in the world. The earth and the world may use force, but I never do. This force is easily seen in the military from the drill instructor. It is easily seen in the tax man who will take your house if you don't pay up. The world uses force against one's will and conscience, but I never do.

The state has revealed over and over again that it uses the very force and manipulation that it accused me of. For example, in these days the state has "thought police," and the state will kidnap a family's children if it feels that they're not being taught along the proper social lines. They will force and enforce punishment on those who don't speak according to the current social norms. People will be fined or put in prison for assumed offenses, as I was. And this motivating spirit of force that possesses the state, it placed upon me, which is entirely wrong. I am not coming from where they're coming from in any way. The state's mentality is truly the mentality of a cult.

Our present "democracy" has been described as a "benevolent dictatorship." I believe that is true but the "benevolent" is misunderstood. What that actually means is that they smile and act nice while they force us, instead of yelling and cursing while they force us, as all normal dictatorships would. They "benevolently" kidnap our children instead of kidnapping them violently. The state has replaced righteousness with being nice. It is truly alright to be nice, but "nice" is not justice and truth.

Another simple example of this force is, when I was young and the United States was a free country, you could decide whether to use a seatbelt or not. Now the state thinks for you and doesn't give you freedom to think for yourself. It decides for you that you must use a seat belt. You must use certain kinds of car seats for children. They have assumed ownership of the children. And they have applied their own motivations of force and coercion and ownership of people, onto me, and accused me for what they do. Those in government and law "enforcement," projected onto me, what they're guilty of, imagining that I am as they are. God judges them by the judgment with which they have judged me, and so God will now "force" them and "accuse" them, as they have done to me.

Therefore wait for Me, says the LORD, against the day when I arise as accuser. For it is My decision to gather together the nations, to assemble the kingdoms, in order to pour out upon them My wrath, all My blazing anger. For in the fire of My jealousy shall all the earth be consumed. Zeph. 3:8, NAB.

Modern religion has become utterly slovenly in its faith and its gospel. They don't pray to be married to God, but to get some designer furniture, or a college education, or some vain relationship. Can you imagine Jesus preaching to the five thousand and saying, "If you give me money, then God will give you money"? It's time for this evil to pass away. In an hour it will be gone. (Rev. 18:19)

When a nation such as the United States, and especially New Mexico in my case, departs from justice after so much light of evidence and witness from God has been given, the Lord declares of that nation, "Babylon is fallen, is fallen and is become the habitation of devils and the hold of every foul spirit and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird." Rev. 18:2. The willing injustices and evils perpetrated by state and national leaders, and those who vote for them, are making their mark. It is the mark of men, the mark of the beast. But it is written of the beast, "...he shall be broken without hand." Dan. 8:25.

The Lord will go forth like a mighty man, He will rouse up His zealous indignation and vengeance like a warrior; He will cry, yes, He will shout aloud, He will do mightily against His enemies. Isa. 42:13, AMP.

The blood of all those who have been abused by injustice from the beast is crying up from the ground to God, and certainly these souls are being avenged. But this crying up to God is particularly true of those who have been ridiculed and rejected because the Spirit of the Anointing in them was mocked and esteemed as an evil thing. But to all the abusers and mockers and rejectors of the Anointed Spirit, I solemnly say, "It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God." Heb. 10:31.

The question is asked in Scripture, "Can unjust judges be your allies, those who create burdens in the name of the law, those who conspire against the just and condemn the innocent to death? Surely the Lord Yahweh our God will destroy them." Psalms 94:20, 21-23, NAB.

For they speak not peace: but they devise deceitful matters against them that are quiet in the land [of Travesser]. Yea, they opened their mouth wide against me, and said, Aha, aha, our eye hath seen it [we have seen that he is a controlling and violent sex offender]. This [accusation] thou hast seen, O LORD: keep not silence: O Lord, be not far from me. Stir up thyself, and awake to my judgment, even unto my cause, my God and my Lord. Psalm 35:20-23.

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